Sunday Morning

I now have the luxury of owning a full-sized refrigerator.  Not only do I have more room to store food in the fridge and freezer, but I can stand upright as I use it.  No more bending over to find things.  The small fridge I had served its purpose, but in order to keep things completely frozen in the freezer section, I ran the risk of freezing things in the refrigerator section.  And, it's nice to have ice again, especially ice that did not start out as lettuce.

This purchase is symbolic for me.  It represents a transition to a more healthy state of living, moving away from the debilitating effects of depression.  It is a sign of progress from just barely getting by day to day.  The buying process itself was an indication of progress as well.  In the past, when the opportunity to made such a purchase would have presented itself, completing the transaction would have been all-consuming with me.  There would have been this drive, this need, to get it done immediately.  I would have made and quick purchase and been stirred up inside, excited and anxious, until it was done.  This time, I was able to wait as I asked for advice, negotiated a deal, and arranged for delivery.  I also wouldn't have thought of purchasing a used refrigerator.  I paid less than 1/5 the cost of a similar new model.  All in all, I am pleased.

I am looking forward to seeing family today, albeit at the funeral home.  It's been years since I've seen some of my kinfolk.

Any so-called material thing that you want is merely a symbol: you want it not for itself, but because it will content your spirit for the moment.  ~~Mark Twain