Update

Well, I'm back again today.  My counseling session was very helpful.  An illustration Jeremy gave me reminded me of something.  "Oh, yes," I said, "the Zen of Chester."  He looked at me quizzically, and I explained where that came from, how Chester spent two days crawling under my house removing storm-damaged fiberglass insulation.  And I told him how I wondered what he thought about those two days of most unpleasant, lonely, tedious, dirty, prickly, and difficult work.  And when I asked, Chester said he thought about the work he was doing.  How he was going to avoid that ant pile over there, what the best approach to each portion of the work would be, just focusing on what was right in front of him.  I had lost the Zen of Chester, bit by bit, I guess.  Being sick hasn't helped; neither has work.  It became apparent to me that I was putting more care, effort, attention, and energy in the boat than the manager.  It's not my responsibility, and I have let that go.  I'll point out things I see that need attention, but I'm not going to be the one responsible for seeing that it gets done.  I also did a little bit in payroll today.  It wasn't a lot, but it gave me more of a sense of accomplishment than I've had there in a long time.  I think I'll be moving to payroll full time soon, and there will be new challenges there. 

Anyway, I know I'm rambling, but I wanted to say that I am feeling better, both emotionally, mentally, and physically.  I have more of a sense of well-being, something that I've missed very much.