Feeling Better

Well, I got my wish for early morning time.  I woke up at 3:30 this morning and couldn't go back to sleep.  Ah, well, be careful what you wish for....  Still, I'm glad to be up early and have this quiet time to write.

I am on new medication for high blood pressure, and it really did me in for about a week.  I was amazingly tired all the time, and my mind did not work very well.  But yesterday afternoon, things started to slowly and steadily turn around.  I first noticed that I didn't feel quite as tired as I had been.  I was cautiously optimistic, waiting to see if I would continue to improve.  Little by little, I did.  By 7 o'clock, I began thinking of the James Brown song - I feel good.  It wasn't that I was feeling great, just happy to be doing so much better.  I just took my dose this morning, so we'll see if there are any side effects from today's dose.

I'm glad that Queenie and the Prince are here.  I can't express how grateful I am to them for all their help, even though it may not seem that way.  I know that I make it difficult for people to help me by deflecting their attempts.  I don't mean to do it; it is like an automatic response with me.  I can't offer much advice as to what to do about it, either.  I'm not sure that pressing an issue would do any good.  It may be the harder you press, the more I would resist.  I just don't know.  And I don't think it will ever change.  But rest assured that your visit here has relieved a lot of anxiety for me. 

In addition to that, my recent difficulty in thought-processing hasn't helped matters, either.  It was hard for me to grab hold of an idea and figure out what it meant or to express myself.  It was as though ideas entered my head and reached a dead end before I could respond to them.  At least I am thinking more clearly now.  Thanks for all your patience. 

I've provided a link below to a site that contains some additional information that I think fits.  I'm not sure just how reputable this site is.  I've found this additional info on only one other site, and it had links to conspiracy theories about 9/11 and personality disorders in dogs!

http://psychcentral.com/disorders/sx30.htm