Little Big Steps

The big black hole of finances is staring me in the face.  Perhaps I should call it the red hole, because that's where I am - in the red.  I am experiencing the same feeling of dread that paralyzed me before.  Can I find a way to deal with it?  That's the big question.  Here is my plan.

• First, to practice calming myself down.  It requires continous effort.  Fear keeps rising up within me.
• Second, to get in touch with my fear.  Emotions are supposed to naturally come and go during the course of a day.  I am hoping that if I can experience fear in a time and place that is appropriate, I can let the feeling go.  Fingers crossed.
• Third, to do the things on my daily maintenance plan.  It will give structure to my day and keep order in my life.
• Fourth, to focus on short-term goals, like pursuing unemployment and sending out resumes.  That should give me a sense of accomplishment and move me forward.  Onward and upward.

So, that's it, folks.  It's a plan that I can follow.  Give me your prayers and support.  I need them right now.

It is better to take many small steps in the right direction than to make a great leap forward only to stumble backward.


Old Chinese Proverb